spontaneity

definition: "performed or occuring as a result of a sudden inner impulse or inclination without premediation or external stimulus. a person having an open, natural, and uninhibited manner."

so i'm learning how to be like this. ever since i was 5 years old and my mother gave me a $1 for the Dollar Store, i've thought through everything in my life critically, vowing internally to make the right decision. yes, its the perfection coming out, but also don't we all just want to make a good decision? OK, when I'm 5 and take 30 minutes (or more? i'll have to ask Nan) to decide what I want at the Dollar Store...that could be a little excessive.

so it didn't surprise me that i was taught a lesson, centering around spontaneity. so friday night was my fun night, have friends over, play games night. and saturday was going to be my chill night, watch a movie, do laundry and/or paint my nails night. friday rolls around and it didn't work out the way i had carefully planned. yes, i had cleaned the house friday (mostly because i hadn't all week and it was disgusting), but i had prepared all the details for a fun night in playing cranium, drinking wine, and catching up with old friends. one girl canceled at the last minute, one girl had to babysit later than she thought, and Beth had to babysit until later in the evening as well. so after a glass of wine and good conversation (nonetheless), we went to bed. so unlike i had planned.

now saturday night, the only goal beth and i had was consuming only foods that end in "ita" at Mexican restaurants...fajitas and margaritas if you're so curious. beforehand we thought about inviting our new friend that works/lives in our apartment building. so she joined a few hours later with another friend and we chatted for a while at dinner and had a blast getting to know one another better. we came back to our apartment and had a glass of wine. and no, the kitchen and living room weren't spotless, but we enjoyed ourselves, our company, and our wine.

bottom-line is: i'm learning how to be spontaneous. and the first goal is to not plan.